Connection is a wonderful thing. The beauty of being connected with someone, with something, at the core of our existence the need to be connected is found. Having someone or something to share with in joy, in triumphs, in the good news. To be able to celebrate with another person or an organization. This is truly a marvelous thing. However, as it is with life...there is symmetry.
Connection has it's downside as well. And this downside isn't really a downside at all...depending on your point of view (glass half full kind of thing).
To have someone to share with the pains, and defeats of life, the overwhelming feeling of bad. It's nice to know that you will never be alone, even if you feel alone, you still have connection. God is always there ready to catch the fallen. And i don't know how God does it.
It just sucks to be the catcher sometimes, not in a "wow i don't care enough to be here kind of way", but in a "My God, My God this is killing me to witness" kind of way." And sometimes those of us who just have to sit on the side and hold the other person up, it's so hard. All i want to do God is bust in, take charge, deal justice, right what has been wronged to the person we love. But it's sooo hard to just sit here and say "I know baby, I'm sorry, everythings going to be allright"
Don't get me wrong, i know that everything is going to be allright, but it doesn't make the here and now any easier to bear...well...i guess it does. I mean without the hope that God you are going to take care of everything, and that you know what you're doing...what else do i have? Nothing. So really...the only thing i have, we have, in this connection is the hope...that true right now things suck...however...God you know what you are doing and you know what's best.
I wish you would come back for us. My soul is impatiently restless.
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